I fucking saw Raines and my mother dead. [She said the words without emotion.] I thought Adam was Raines, and he was walking toward me and I stabbed him with a serving fork. He did something to make it not so bad.

[Was it easier to talk about stabbing one of your friends and dead mothers then this? Why yes, yes it was. She took a deep drink of the scotch, knowing it was too fast but she didn't care. When she spoke it was angry.]

I love my father. I would have done anything to make him happy. [And she had.]

I had goals. [In the Centre.] And I didn't need friends or free time or anything like that. [Until Tommy.]