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A crack in the mirror.

Does anyone else have a weird sense of waiting for something?

[Private to Paddy and Judas, separate-like]

Doing better?

[Private to Aleera]

I wanna talk to you about something?

[Private to Denise.]

So what the hell do I need to do to graduate?

[Private to Jarod-voice.]

Are you alive, wonderboy?

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What is this thing...? Perhaps there was misunderstanding?

This isn't just about they did to Thomas, and it isn't just what they did to everyone else they've fucked over. It's mostly about what your father did to you and THAT'S why murder is suddenly an option. Even after Thomas got killed, you painted your dad as a saint. You still blamed what happened to your mom on Jarod, even though he was a little kid AND a victim. This is your rage from remembering how your dad abused you talking, and you're totally right in feeling it, but you have to actually move on before you can move on from here.

For now, chill the fuck out and take your time dealing with this, because this isn't something you wanna half-ass. If you're really that hung up on justice being served, you'll find a better way to do it, LATER. Work on yourself first.

[She took the glass and took a large drink of it with a scowl.]

Denise won't let me graduate until I can leave and not fucking kill my father. Which... I'm probably never gonna do.

I stopped... when you became a warden.

[Paddy took a large drink himself]

Yeah, but how much shit did you think you'd never fucking do when you got here, Parker?

There's other fucking solutions. Don't write shit off, Parker. You never know.

Yes, but... You came to understand.

I do not hold this against you. Only wished or understanding. Do not feel burdened.

Are you... Returning?

I'm going to do it later. I'm going to make my fucking deal to give Tommy back his life, then I'm going to go back and help Jarod take this shit down.

See? There ya go. You've got some priorities in order already. Just come to terms with what your father did to you and move past it, and you'll probably be set.

What's it gonna take for that to happen, anyway?

Better.

This is different. The Centre needs to fucking go down and my father [the words were so spat] and Raines need to be stopped. No one is going to be safe until the and the Centre are gone.

[He sighed, because he didn't want to be arguing with her, but still,] Yeah, Parker, and if you can only think of killing as a way of stopping something, she's fucking right. Hate to point it out, but she is. You're right, it does need to be fucking stopped, but... you can do other shit. You can come up with better shit. You're more intelligent than that.

I don't fucking know.

I am. yes. I'm going to return for my deal then go back and fix some things.

Did you sleep?

All of Thursday. I took a dreamless sleep potion.

But I haven't been able to sleep since.

While I would not be so cruel as to forbid another decision, this is a cause of relief to me...

Because justice is going to work to bring him down. I don't even know who killed Thomas, and four people died to stop the investigation. How many more do you think the Centre would have killed in order to stop them from being brought down? Thousands. At least, including me. I'm not doing this out of vengeance, it's justice for what they've done to everyone they've ever touched.

Yeah? You and me both.

[Paddy shook his head,] Parker, if there's one thing I fucking learned, it's that killing people never works out to be justice. The bitch that killed my daughter, and gave me an addiction that should have fucking killed me, thought that she was giving out justice for what I'd done to her daughter.

It wasn't justice. Don't drag yourself into Hell to dump people there to stay. Because the likelihood is that you're stayin' with them.

[He paused awkwardly and had a drink,] Parker, it ain't my place to argue this shit out with you, but... I can't fucking fault her, here.

[Parker got up and she started pacing at that. She had expected Paddy to be the one person who got it. Jarod only got it as far as taking the Centre down, he didn't get what needed to happen. She slugged down her drink quickly before she set down the empty glass.]

We're probably talking at least a million people here, Paddy, between everything that they've done. A million fucking people.

This is bullshit, it's what needs to be done.

I'm glad. And I'm sorry.

Are they doing anything?

Who?

Sexby, the infirmary, anything.

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