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Barge coma is just another way for the man in charge to fuck with us.

[Private to Parker's friends (especially the Tough Ass Women club.)
So did I miss anything important while I was dead to the world?

[Private to Parker.]
You. Me. Talking. I've got something for you.

[Private to Angelica]
Let's play with some fucking swords.

[Private to Laura]
A drink?

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[There was something about this conversation that made her so very uncomfortable. Even when speaking to Martha about this matter she had been careful, cautious, though her friend had been worried and seen for herself the conversation with Snape. Only with Sexby she had been candid about her feelings on the subject, and it had been appropriate then because he was her husband and the former warden of the man.

Angelica looked around them, and once reassured that no one was about to listen she decided it was safe to speak.] I must say this before I tell you - he has said many things over the past year, Parker, and I had forgiven him for each and every one. I care very much for him. He can be kind and sweet and thoughtful, and was there for me as much as I was there for him. But I....

[She frowned.] In his anger he said things about Sexby not deserving his family. I thought he should feel some remorse for it, for it was a horrid thing to say about a man one professes to admire. He felt none. I also wished to warn him about his temper, as now he is a warden, and should be aware of what he might say to strangers in anger, but I worry that he will not. [Angelica rolled down her sleeves, setting her face into a stern expression.] He is graduated, by God. He is.

[A shrug,] But then I wonder if I was more apt to forgive him because he was Sexby's charge and I feared ruining Sexby's work, or if I was truly charmed by Judas when he has his moments of thoughtfulness.

[Parker listened to Angelica, and she had no remorse for pushing against such a delicate topic. If she talked about it, then it would be like posion being expelled from a fucking wound. But she hadn't expected that sort of thing coming out of Angelica's mouth. Parker liked Judas; she was his friend and the two of them had lived through how fucking bad shit had been when there was the zombie flood. She'd also seen how he'd been after the whole break up with Iago.

This shocked her, and it was evident on her face.]

What. The. Fuck. [More of a statement than a question really, and Parker had an urge to punch him in the fucking face. It made her worry, it made her wonder and it made her question shit about the friendship that she had with Judas.]

Tell me Sexby punched him in the fucking mouth.

[Angelica snorted, as Parker's reaction amused her greatly as a summation of all the emotions she had been feeling herself.] Nay, Sexby did not; as always, he reasoned with Judas. Well, I do assume as much anyway, for I've not asked my husband to speak with Judas on my behalf, nor have I any desire to press the matter further. If Sexby and Judas have discussed it at all, I do not know.

I confess, since arguing with Judas I've not sought out conversation with the man. [And there were other things - other realisations that made her believe that conversing with her husband's former inmate would be a mistake.] My husband cannot wash his hands of Judas Iscariot - nor would he for that matter, but I certainly can. I should, Parker, for I should never let any man cross me more than once.

Sexby is a better fucking person than I am. [If someone had said that about her and Paddy? Well, she'd probably be fucking demoted over what she did in response to those comments. Right now Parker was angrier than she had been in a long time. She was angrier than she had been since Paddy had done stupid things and fucked up shit with Laura.

When she was this angry, the last thing that Parker could do was sit still. She got to her feet and prowled quickly, moving back and forth. Really, she couldn't believe that Judas was that fucking retarded.

But there was more to this.]

He did this after he became a fucking warden? After he graduated?

He is a better man than most. [Especially when it came to Judas Iscariot. He always had been a better man than most.

Angelica watched as Parker stood and began to pace, nodding her head slowly.]

Aye, madam. After he graduated. I must add, he did fear the Sexby had abandoned him, though I reassured him otherwise. Sexby does not make promises he does not intend to keep. Still, I suppose I cannot truly fault him for worrying.

[Though Angelica certainly could still fault Judas for saying such things in public. She could fault him for not feeling remorse about it as well. She could fault him for being a hypocrite, and for being spiteful, for if he felt no remorse then he was inviting ill-will towards him.

She also could fault him for calling her a whore and wishing to do harm to her while she was with child, but those were very personal matters.]

Shit. I fucking told him that Sexby would be back. [A part of her wondered why he'd never gotten as stupid with her. Probably because there was no way that she would have stood for it. Ever. There just wasn't any way.

For a moment, Parker didn't know what to say. She was thinking about how there were all those who were shitty and ill suited to be a warden, and there had been doubts about Judas from the beginning. There were even more at the moment.]

Do you think he can actually do this, Angie? Do you think he can be a warden and fucking suck it up?

[She needed to know if the doubts were only hers. And if she ever found out about the thing about the stairs? Parker would beat the shit out of Judas.]

[Angelica fell silent for a long moment. It was a topic she simply was not comfortable with, considering there were many on the Barge who were ill-suited to being a warden.

However, she did wish that Judas had gone off to seek the family that he so desired, instead of remaining on the Barge out of fear or whatever it had been that kept him from going.]

I think...in time, perhaps. [She frowned, glancing over at Parker with a worried expression on her face. She knew perfectly well that she didn't sound very convinced, but it was a struggle for her to say negative things against Judas. She didn't want to be bitter.] There have been wardens aboard who had been horrid at what they do. I think that Judas simply remains for the wrongs reasons, and he will not find the happiness here that he seeks.

And in the mean time someone gets stuck with a shitty whiny warden who probably shouldn't have graduated. [Parker took a deep breath, remembering some of the wardens that she'd had and how ill-suited they'd been for her. Hell, she'd even run one off the barge simply by having their pairing announced. And he? He was a fucking angel.]

He needs to grow up. [The statement was said quickly, and there was a bit of violence in it.]

[She raised her brow,] Madam, should a man be an inmate solely for being prone to whine? Or even for having a temper? [Angelica shrugged and brought a hand to her head. But what else had Sexby been supposed to do? His job hadn't been to reform a personality, just judgement - but even if he had somewhat succeeded in that, and his leaving had been a test of all that Judas had learned, then his charge had failed miserably.]

Aye, maybe he was unprepared, I know not. Maturity aside, he claims to be a loyal man, but the moment Sexby left he began to doubt him. He had best not do the same to his inmate. [She looked once more towards Parker, understanding why she would be so cross at the matter.] I admit, he is not suited for this.

[Parker caught the rebuke, but she didn't comment on it. For now she didn't say anything. Lord knew Parker herself had a fucking temper and a half and she could well... She was doing what she was doing and lashing out because this situation was fucked. And she was lashing out because there were few people whom Parker actually trust with watching her back (though the number had grown) and since the zombie port, Judas had been one of them. She was rethinking that now, because most of the time once Parker's faith was lost it was lost forever.]

Hopefully the Admiral doesn't do something stupid and assign him a fucking fail inmate then. [Her voice was softer now, a bit by way of an apology, even if she didn't come out and offer it in words.]

[Angelica noticed the change in her tone. She hadn't blamed her for her reaction - bitterness and anger, even dismay had been appropriate, but Angelica liked to keep a level head when she could. As angry as she was with Judas, and as fed-up with his behaviour as she had become, she knew launching into a tirade against him would help no one.

She nodded her head, her acknowledgement for the shift in tone.] Aye. Hopefully he will be given an Admiral not prone to violence either, for I would fear the worst.

[She got to her feet.] Well, I seem to have spoiled the moment. Think you that bringing swords into the pub would be permissible?

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